Spent some wonderfully exciting days in the forests with some friends and apparently found my writing mojo again.

There's going to be a wedding next week which has been on my mind for a while now. It won't be a very romantic one because Satish is marrying Amber so that he may stay in this country. What's fascinating to me about the whole thing is that they both belong to someone else and that they don't love each other. Both owners came to an agreement and as a result their slaves are going to spend the rest of their lives married to someone they would never marry if given the choice.

I am completely in awe of their devotion and submission.

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so why is it that even though I really really want to see Daddy I am almost afraid? almost.

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A came over to do a homework project and he loaded a malware virus from an infected jump drive. Hence the total lack of posting or doing anything since it's the only working computer in the house.

But get this nice little scenerio that is being played out for memorial day weekend.

As some of you already know who my other Daddy is

grail76

 and Daddy's girlfriend is

soubrettic

one Milo Milosevich Mamelon.

super needy lovingly annoying cat to give to good home.

his hatred of rosie is just too much, he needs to go. i am heartbroken and depressed but it would be selfish of me to keep him around.

i do not want him to end up at the humane society so please help me in trying to find a child free home for my beloved cat.

Changes
-David Bowie

I still don't know what I was waiting for
And my time was running wild
A million dead-end streets
Every time I thought I'd got it made
It seemed the taste was not so sweet
So I turned myself to face me
But I've never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I'm much too fast to take that test

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Don't want to be a richer man
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Just gonna have to be a different man
Time may change me
But I can't trace time

I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence and
So the days float through my eyes
But still the days seem the same
And these children that you spit on
As they try to change their worlds
Are immune to your consultations
They're quite aware of what they're going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Don't tell t hem to grow up and out of it
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Where's your shame
You've left us up to our necks in it
Time may change me
But you can't trace time

Strange fascination, fascinating me
Changes are taking the pace I'm going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Oh, look out you rock 'n rollers
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Pretty soon you're gonna get a little older
Time may change me
But I can't trace time
I said that time may change me
But I can't trace time

________________________Live Journal Friends________________________

I think one word that describes me, and my life for the last 7 months is 'change'. On almost all levels of my life there have been major changes. Change is scary and exciting. Change is full of tears and laughter. Change is often life altering.

As with my everyday life, I am making some changes here. I am no longer happy to have a friends list that is 75% dormant. There is something uncomfortable about having people who you have allowed a look into your life, allowed to see who and what you are, just sit there in silence.

My life is important to me. My words have meaning as do each and everyone of your words. We all write them here, in this format to try and open up, work through stuff, or just share with others. I think if you have a blog an you leave it open to comments, there is some need to 'interact' with other's. I know for me that is very important. I want to get to know new people, learn and grow from their lives, thoughts, opinions etc.

For this reason, I am no longer happy to have people that lurk in the shadows, never saying a word. If I friended you, it was because I wanted to get to know you and I was interested in hearing your voice, in your own journal and in mine. This is not meat to be a whinge, it is just how I feel. I don't need people to comment all the time, but once in awhile we should all touch bases/connect with those we found enough interest in to let them into our personal place.

So, in the spirit of change, my friends list has been modified. Lovely new faces will be about. Welcome all, excited to get to know you. And farewells to those that have long since been MIA, or show no interest and therefore won't even realise they have been cut. I try and stay around 100 users on my list as I don't feel I could keep up and be a good live journal friend if I had too many more. To keep the balance I trim. I have lots of names on my list for sentimental reasons, names that haven't posted in years letting go was not easy but necessary.

In regards to the friending and unfriending drama - really, you know, not a big deal. I don't always announce when I am making changes to my list, for me that feels overly dramatic. I have made this post only because there are so many new faces and so many old one's let go. My existing friends deserve to be introduced to the fact that there will be new people joining the table. Feel free to unfriend me anytime if you are not feeling it. I will not be offended and I don't need warning. We all must be true to our own paths. Sometimes what at first feels like it might be a good fit isn't. It takes awhile to truly get to know people on any level in this forum. And with all the 'friends only' journals, often you have to friend first before knowing for sure. So in the spirit of freewill and being true to self, enjoy, and if you don't cut me loose.

I wish everyone well, new and old, here and gone. Life is what you make it, enjoy!

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So I just wrote that I was uncertain of where this journal is headed, but then I was looking at journal prompts on

http://www.sensual-service.com/category/journal-prompts/ and found this question. 

In result I think the journal will find its purpose.

How does illness, depression or stress affect your service? How do you handle it’s effects?

For us depression plays a daily part in our relationship. Being that I have bipolar it makes it very hard for Master to control me at times. I get to where I don’t want to obey, I backtalk, I am just totally unruly. In the beginning it was really stressful and He doubted that I could be a slave 24/7. We have learned how to balance things. We have signals, so that He knows if I’m having issues that cause me not to be able obey or serve as I normally would.

Depression and stress go hand in hand for me. I get lazy when I’m depressed and as I mentioned before I don’t want to obey. I do try really hard and Master reminds me of things that I’m doing.

Stress can actually be a good thing at times. There are times when I am stressed that I have all this extra energy because I’m stressing that I can get a lot done. Being bipolar, I also have manic times where I have a lot of energy and I can also get a lot done. Those times are better for me and Master, in my opinion anyways.

The way we handle the effects is that we talk daily and very openly about what is being done and what isn’t. Having a mental illness, means that we have to communicate more than we would normally, as there are so many different aspects. 

Rich's kari

I started this journal one, so that I could express myself with things that I can't always say directly to Master. Then it turned into a source to communicate with other submissives and slave, as well as learning about their life with their Dominant, Master, Owner, or whatever the person is. 

Why do I keep this journal now? I don't have an answer for that. If I asked Master He might let me not post anymore, because I'm not using it as I was in the beginning. I have stopped having anything to say. Instead of being some place where I can just write whatever, it's become this why don't people reply and comment, so in that aspect the journal has changed.

I've been pondering where I want this journal to go and perhaps talking to Master about doing private posts is what I need to do, although He has the final say. 

When it comes to being sick, I can usually convince myself to just forget about it, but not anymore. I'm back to feel sick every time I eat, so tomorrow I will make an appointment. I really don't want to have a scope done, but maybe that's what will tell me what is wrong. 

More tomorrow.....

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