Tomorrow Daddy and I start our getting healthy plan. Very difficult for
me because I have to tell him my starting weight. The real one, LOL.
Very hard for me to give control on that issue because that's always
been the one thing I've used for my own control. I used to see how
many days in a row I could go without eating at all. I could control
that. I could do that and almost was like my own self punishment.
Now I stopped doing that and have gained quite a bit of weight.
Currently about 5 lbs over my top weight. Very unhappy with myself
Sometimes the most difficult places to give yourself in submission is not always
in pain or pleasure but to give in aspect of those mental and places
that will heal.